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Grief Out Loud — A Gift
An intimate voice
for isolated times
— and she rocks.
"lyrical, intense, intimate and relatable, a diary into Collins' mind that listeners may see as a mirror into their own lives.”—FoxNews.com
I said goodbye to Mom the morning of January 24. Over the phone to the sound of her labored breathing 3000 miles away, I sang her "Que Sera Sera" and told her, "Go on...go." Just after I hung up the phone, the finalized song files for my debut album ONE GIRL TOWN arrived in my inbox. I burned a disc and put it in my car to review. A few hours later, I got back in the car to drive home after getting the news. The song "Sometimes" was playing. Mom had died.
Three weeks later, sitting on a mattress on the floor of a punk-band friend's closet-like guest room a few days after my mother's funeral, I was supposed to be in the midst of a media blitz for the record. It turned my stomach. Emailing music blogs just didn't feel right. I needed to talk to someone who understood the strange limbo I was navigating. So with a yellow rose from my mother's funeral bouquet by my side, I Googled. Then I wrote to the podcast, Grief Out Loud.
For the next two months I dove into the voices on the podcast. It seemed like the only place on earth that understood me. It was such a gift. So by the time I got the chance to actually do the interview, I knew that one of the things I wanted to do most was give something back.
If you are a listener to Grief Out Loud, or dealing with grief in any way. I offer you "Sometimes" to give you comfort and courage through your grief, your challenging relationships, and through the hard days. I hope my voice can keep you company when you need someone to understand.
If you want even more, THE OPEN DIARY details all of it. From the day I found out Mom died, until...now. It is ongoing. Her birthday, the album release, Mothers' Day, and even the perfect cheese sandwich—you know how important those pockets of joy are. The reading above was written in the hotel room two days before her funeral. —LC